I know all your secrets too...

When you are around people, do you ever think you KNOW what that person is thinking, or that you know what that person thinks about you? Do you have thoughts in your head of things these people say about you? You feel judged. You feel like there aren't many people around you who you can absolutely trust. You KNOW what they think and you know what they say, but you have to grin and bear it.
I feel like this... All the time. I know I can trust my mom and my husband. But there are others who I know, when mad at me, have said really hurtful, really...hateful things, to other people. I had a "friend" who ruined my reputation when I was pregnant. And even though she may have set the record straight, there are those who still think about the awful things she said and believe them. There is  a family member whom was mad at my mother and I and went and said awful vicious things. Things that... a family member shouldn't say no matter how mad they are.. I was mad, I didn't say things I could have. These people put your deepest secrets, your most vulnerable moments... on display. You can't go back from there. Things like this are why I don't like to go out in public much. I feel self conscious, like people "know" things about me, that were portrayed in awful lighting for the world to see. I have made amends but my heart remembers, my brain remembers, so its always in the back of my mind "if I tell them this, next time they are mad at me are they going to tell the world again?" You can't get that trust back.
Sorry world, this is something that was on my mind tonight. I can't stop thinking about it. I don't always like myself, I hate what I see in the mirror. But I wish I could turn my brain off for one night and just...be.
Goodnight world.

I'm Working on it...

I know that I haven't done a lot of blogs recently, and I'm sorry. I had hopes of having this amazing blog and writing in it everyday, but I started it right around the holidays. Which anyone who has kids and a family knows that the holidays are such a busy time. Life consumes you, and I don't want to miss a thing. I don't usually do "New Years Resolutions" because who can stick with the losing weight and quitting something or whatever it may be. You don't know the future, you don't know what is going to happen a WHOLE year from now, so how can you plan it? You can hope that you succeed in your resolution (and some do!) but I don't so I usually never make them. BUT I am going to make a goal. I am going to make a goal of at least 2 blog posts a week. That way if I do more "YAY!!!", if I don't I will at least make 2. I want this to be a successful blog. I guess it's for reviews, thoughts, shit my kids say... lol I'm also hoping Santa brings me a camera, so I can take better pictures for you guys and have a lot more fun. I love reviewing things. I have an opinion on a lot of stuff. I curse a lot. I love my kids and husband. And I love having this blog as an outlet. Kind of like having a diary as a kid, except on here, no one knows who you are and everyone is reading what you put out there. Okay... so maybe it's not QUITE like having a diary. 

Well, I'm off to do a bunch of surveys and sweepstakes (my favorite way to pass time!). I'm a little bummed that I failed one of my classes, but passed with a 100% in one of the others. So, maybe school isn't right for me right now. I'll figure it out. I have my whole life to figure it out. So do you. 
Goodnight World. 
<3

Mixed Chicks Hair Products - Review

Having three little girls, who all have a different type of curly hair, can be very challenging. A lot of work and time goes into doing my daughters hair. I have tried numerous (and I mean NUMEROUS) hair products to try to control the frizz, define their curls, and basically make their hair more manageable. I wrote to Mixed Chicks and they gave me some free samples to try. I have not been more impressed with a hair care routine than I am with theirs. They sent me the trial packs for kids and trial packs for adults. They both have the same concept: Shampoo, Condition, and Leave-in conditioner.

Look how sudsy it gets!

Mmm! Lollipops!

The children's pack is the one that I have tried so far. I wash my girls hair once to twice a week. The children's shampoo smells so yummy. Like those little yellow lollipops that come in a clear wrapper. It's nice and light, unlike a lot of shampoos that I have tried. I noticed that when I poured a little in my hand, that a little bit went a long way. I still have nearly the whole trial size package of the shampoo and I washed all three girls hair with it. I put a little water in my hand and applied it right to their hair and it rinsed clean and very easily.


Next I put in the conditioner. It is thick, and unscented. When I say thick I don't mean like heavy and greasy, I mean thick like, a little palmful spreads quite a long ways and it is thicker consistency. I put this in the girls hair and took a wide-tooth shower comb to their curls. I have found that combing while hair has conditioner in it, 1. helps spread the conditioner evenly through the hair, and 2. that it helps detangle much easier and much less painful. I left this conditioner in their hair while they cleaned themselves. Then I rinsed them off, including their hair. Oh, it was soooo soft and smooth. Their curls just soaked it up!

Comb hair with a wide-tooth comb
for easy detangling

Lastly, there is the Leave-in conditioner. This is unscented as well. It is more of a lotion-ey consistency. This I put in their hair right before they left the tub. Combed it through, and sent them to get their jammies on. When they came to me to get their hair done their hair was just so shiny and bouncy and healthy looking. My youngest, who's hair is more wavy and straight and well... all over the place, had body and definition to her little curly waves. SCORE! I am just so impressed with this haircare system and will definitely be purchasing the full size bottles. The next morning when they woke up, there was noticeably less fly-aways, their hair was shiny and not dull, like a lot of products tend to do. What I was most impressed with was the leave-in conditioner. I have used detangling sprays and "leave in conditioning sprays" but I have never put a conditioner in and left it. I have to say I had qualms about that. I thought "will this leave residue?", "will it irritate their scalp because I am leaving it on" and "will it look greasy?" The answer to all of those I found out was NO. No residue! Their hair ate it right up! No irritation, my oldest said "mommy this makes my hair feel so much better!"
Thank you Mixed Chicks!!!

I can't believe how nice her hair came out.

See how defined and moisturized her hair is!

You can find a variety of products on their website, Mixed Chicks.

If you are interested in just trying their products they offer sample packages (which last much longer than one use) for $0.99 plus S&H. This is a great opportunity to try their products without committing to a whole bottle. I am sure you will be just as impressed as I am!


 (this is what was leftover after washing three curly heads!)